Inner Addict Poem by Marie Melodie

I encourage people to stop.
I support the cause.
I wear the lines
I wear the words
I wear the ribbon
But still i do the deed
I stress the addiction
Without saying im the addict
I call it the past
Even though its the present
I threw away the tool
Now i have barely designs
Instead of full ones
Part of me wants to stop
But part of me doesnt.
Part of me loves this release
The sight of it
Then theres the part of me
That hates the sight
The scars
The part that's smart
That knows im doing wrong
And when i think im done
When i think i've beat this addiction
That i am no more an addict
It doesnt take long till im back to the begining
Then i go to that same ending
And it replays
Over and over
And i loose my mind
Over and over
Nothing seems to work
But am i trying hard enough?
Because...
Tears wont even drop from my eyes,
While i do these designs on my thigh.
This is kind of like my art,
Even though its not smart.