In July Poem by Sandra Sando

In July, each day draws me nearer to another year without you
An unwelcome anniversary but there's nothing I can do
To turn back the clock, to bring you back home
To return you to your family the place you belong.

For the last few months I've passed every day
The place where your car, all crumpled, lay
As I pass by your tree, the grandest one there
I say 'hi darling, love you' hoping you'll hear.

On this anniversary like the ones gone before
I'll remember each moment
Until you walked out the door
You looked so handsome and I told you so
'Have a good time sweetheart'
Then I watched you go.

If only I'd known - but what would I do?
Why didn't I sense what would happen to you?
I should have felt something, after all I'm your mum
Instead I waved you goodbye and hoped you'd have fun.

That final weekend is etched in my brain
And on this anniversary I will think once again
Of all that you did and the things that we said,
So many thoughts of you going round in my head.

I hope you'll remember as you watch from above
That my last words to you were words of love.