I Want To Cry Poem by .... Chetty

I cried inside and no tears came from my eyes
The time I shut his car door was the moment I never saw tears
Nothing can explain and I don't even know the words for the pain
I feel like screaming my heart out but the world would hear me from a far
The more I hold, the more I hate him
The more I don't cry, the more I forget him
How does any of this make sense?
What I am I longing for? I don't know and I cannot explain
It was beautiful, oh yes it was. Even when it was only for a moment he was mine
I sit and stare at the phone
The tears that don't fall weights me down
I look through the window and no signs from the heaven
Does he think of me?
Does he feel the same?
Why does it hurt so badly when I can't even scream?
Should I send him a sweet word? Would that even make amend?
Or would he think I am hanging on to him.

Something in the world you cannot describe, it just happens like lightening
You try to hold on to the sparks but rather it electrifies you and strikes you down
Someone wins and one lose
But sometimes both lose at the same time

I wish the lord would send an angel to hold me tight tonight
I want to cry so badly and let my skin burn into coal
He pulled the trigger and bang right where it hurts
I wipe the blood that remains on the floor
The darkness takes over my heart
You hurt me bad

I want to move on
I want to shine so bright
I want to fly so high
Please god, give me peace to cry and forget

I don't want the pain
I want something beautiful
I want to forget him
I want to shine
Please lord hold me tight help me cry