I Still Couldnt Cry Poem by Micron

Its always too hard say a final goodbye
But I haven’t found time to really cry
Dad beside me wears a dark tie
No suit like others but he did really try
Its so hard to go through a funeral not cry
Dad’s lost his soul mate gone I sadly sigh
As he heavily weeps saying bye bye
I hug hold dad tight but cant meet his eye
As hiding my pain inside my tears I force dry
Mozarts clarinet music through the air softly fly
I fight tears thinking ‘keep composure’ this I try
Angrily wiping away tears starting in my eye
I can’t crack now others I must support I must fight tears try
But it’s hard to know now I did not really cry
To dry my tears maybe I didn’t love enough is imply
I didn’t mean disrespect only having non flowing tears in my eye
I feel huge guilt and pain at my tears forced again dry
And at your funeral I couldn’t even allow myself to cry