I Own Up (It's All My Fault) Poem by Shilesha Johnson

How can I live with myself?
Knowing every thing that I caused
Knowing that I put my whole life on pause
Knowing that I can’t go back
My face is pounding
Feels as if I’ve been smacked
I know the wrong I’ve done
I know that I am the one
The cause for all of my pain
Their was something I could have done
Something I could have changed
Something I could have done to save us
But I chose lust over love
And now it’s too late
I can’t deal with the pain
I own up
I give up
On everything
What else is their left to live for?
When you walked out of my door
I tried to forget you
Knowing you don’t care anymore
But how can I
I feel like I want to die
Part of me already has
The pain seems to last
For a lifetime
Especially since I don’t have you by my side
My head is pounding
My eyes burn
Everyone goes through heart aches
But why is it constantly my turn?
I hate this
I can’t take it
Not having you
This is something I jus have to go through
It’s my fault
Why were not together… I own up