I'M Sorry I Lied Poem by Autumn Asrai

Darling, you're mine
But I hate you inside
Cos you gave me a purpose
Then ripped it away
And now all I feel
Is sorrow each day

I wanted to love you
Cos you love me too
But I can't attempt it
When the love isn't mine
Cos it's his and not yours
And I'm sorry I lied

Love seems to hate me
And now I feel guilty
I just can't stand your touch
It revolts me inside
But believe me, I'm sure
I'll accept it in time

My insides are screaming
My smile is gleaming
No one knows that its fake
It'll do just for now
Cos my insides are dying
But I still can't scream out

I try to forget
But it hasn't worked yet
And I want you to leave
Cos I'm really scared
And it terrifies me
That you honestly care

It's ok sometimes
When you're not in my mind
I see a different face
and pretend it's you
Cos I want someone else
And I don't want you too

I just can't leave
I need a reprieve
You're too much to handle
I need to be alone
Cos I'll never love you
This is all that I know

I need to scream out
To yell and to shout
But no one will listen
And she will be right
I just want to give up
She can win the damn fight!