I'M Not Worth Anything Poem by Andrus Cassian

I'm enraged, infuriated; I'm depressed, devastated
My tears are burning my eyes
Everything about me worth telling and important
she ripped from me
So what am I now
I've been stripped of my title as the happiest man in the world
I wasted my last good punch on something so juvenile
I can't even switch to the other hand
I want to kick someone's teeth in, I want to scream
I want to hit something, I want to sit and bawl my eyes out
I want to scream till I'm mute, I'm pleading for death
I'm not worth the space I'm taking up
I'm not worth the air I breathe in
I'm not worth the shoes I try to fill
I'm not worth anything anymore
I'M NOT WORTH ANYTHING, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL
SHE CHEATED ON ME
...repeating it just throws more chains on my heart that's already cascaded into pieces
I'm crumbling as time keeps passing and I don't want to be repaired
It's not time well spent
STICK A KNIFE IN ME CAUSE I CAN'T DO IT MYSELF
She meant more to me than anything, she made me believe she was my destiny
I made myself believe that she was the one for me
by getting lost in her lips and claiming her arms as a haven
LET ME SCREAM, LET ME GO OUTSIDE AND SCREAM
SITTING HERE ISN'T HELPING ME
I don't want to work, I don't want to do much
I don't want to say goodbye
Someone please tell me it's a joke
SOMEONE TELL ME IT'S ALL A JOKE
DON'T TORMENT ME LIKE THIS
DON'T TELL ME THIS IS REAL
DON'T TELL ME ALL I KNOW IS FAKE
I'M BACK TO THE WRECKAGE
I'M A WRECK, A GIGANTIC MESS
...cause I love her still, ...my mistake
If another person told me the story, they would've been dropped
but this is another story, my heart is ripped out
She pried my hands from around her and dropped them to the floor
That should've gave me a hint but my conscience wasn't speaking loud enough
I've lost all my words, all my words, all my words
I've lost my happiness, my happiness, my happiness
I've lost all I held close, all I held close, all I held close
I've lost my whole new world
and I've awoken from this dream
into my old world, drowning in my sorrow...