I'M All Out Of Words Poem by Gary Diamond

I'm all out of words to describe the gnawing of my stomach.
The emotional centre is all chewed and tied up.
The funny thing is, I only feel this bad when I let it out
When I feel for one shining moment that
Maybe there's someone out there who needs me
Like I need them, whoever they are.
Wherever they call home.

That was why when my first dates failed as a child
I vowed never to fall in love, never to taste that kind of pain.
Every so often I have to break my rules.
And sadly, every time I've done so in the last decade
I fare no better than those failed dates of years past.
Maybe I'm just fundamentally stupid and unloveable.

If I am some kind of genius, why is life more confusing to me
Than it is to any average man or woman who never thought about it?

I'm all out of words; my throat chokes when I tire of singing.
I always believed a broken heart would be my artistic birth
But it seems now, that even the promise of the break
Is enough to make my whole body shake with salty tears.

Must be a failure.
Must have been led to believe I was a bright star
When I was destined to do worse all along.
To subsist in some limbo of martyrdom.
That's the way it goes for some people.

And here I am.
Alone.
Grasping.
The shortest straw.
Thank you.