I’ll Put Some Coffee On Poem by Loyd C Taylor Sr

I’ll Put Some Coffee On

Rating: 5.0


The time has finally come, there is no one here now and I’m alone. I shouldn’t be surprised, for loneliness is the story of my life.

I have the rope ready and my stool, now I will put on this tight sweatshirt to secure my arms, just in case I change my mind. But, I know I won’t, I just have to end this suffering, I hope to God I have the courage to see it through.

I have my letter in hand which should explain it all to them. I know they will be better off without me and I, I will be free once and for all from this miserable life, this heavy burden. I don’t think I will be missed, no one ever calls or comes by anymore.

Now, I need to place the letter where they can find it. In it, I have made them aware of my final wishes. What little bit of money I have has been designated. The few material things have been allocated to the right ones, I don’t even know if they will have them.

Now for my final prayer to the one I will entrust my soul to. I pray He can forgive me.

Dear God, I come to you today in utter hopelessness again, as I have so many times before. Lord, you know how miserable and lonely I am. You know that I do not want to be a burden to you or to my family any longer. I feel like I’m just in the way. I know I have been angry that no one has reached out to me, I thought I had made it clear how bad I needed help, just a simple conversation would do. But, everyone is too busy with their life and I feel like such an interference in their plans. God, I just can’t live with myself any longer. Please forgive me for my hopelessness and lack of faith. I do love you, and I do love my family… Help them to understand this letter. Please help them not to be mad at me… Amen

Well, that’s over and there’s just one final thing. I will just place the letter here by the phone in our bedroom. Now, that’s done and I need to head down to the basement and finish my task. God give me strength.



Ring, ring. Ring, ring. Ring, ring. Ring, ring.



Who could that be? I don’t recognize the number. Should I answer?

Well, I’ll just make this quick, it could be about the kids...

Hello… Yes, I remember you. I’m sorry, it’s not a good time, I was right in the middle of something…

You are only a couple of blocks away?



Well… Well, I guess you could come over for a few minutes since you have driven so far.

OK.



I’ll put some coffee on…

POET'S NOTES ABOUT THE POEM
This is dedicated to all who feel hopeless, or to those who may have lost someone to suicide. I hope it will be an encouragement to all of us to pick up that phone and reach out... today!
COMMENTS OF THE POEM
Roseann Shawiak 04 October 2014

Loyd, this poem is extremely intense, just like suicide is. It grips your heart and doesn't let go until the very end when you say I'll put some coffee on. Then relief floods in knowing you are not going to commit suicide. Wow! You have written an excellent poem about the deepest sadness a person can experience in life. It is heart rending to go through, and yes we all need to reach out to others in their desperation and grief. I used to take the calls on a suicide hotline, sometimes a person only needs to hear a kind person's voice and to be validated. Thank you for sharing a very powerful message. RoseAnn

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Kazi Maisha 19 May 2014

Wow..I really enjoyed this poem. It shows the strength of God-that even if you can't feel God's help in your bad days, he'll come and RING RING for you on your worst days. A truly amazing piece... :)

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Darlene Walsh 09 May 2014

Sadness, and saved by the bell. I had my dark days too, but they are gone and every thing is very good now,

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Colleen Courtney 09 May 2014

This is such a powerful write with such an important message. We never know when something we do might change someone's mind and save a life. Love this piece and added to my favorites list.

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