I Hurt Him: '( Poem by Scarlet .....

I did it
the one thing I never wanted to do
I hurt him
for now he is scarred and broken
it is all my fault
I should have just let him live his life
he will not say it is my fault
but I know
I know its my fault
for I did this to him
he saved me
for I was way past the giving my life up stage
I would not have been alive at the end of the week
I had already decided that
he saved me
he saved my life
and what do I do to say thanks
I hurt him
I scar him
I cause him this pain
how can I do this
god I’m so selfish
he is given me happiness and that blinded me
blinded me from seeing
seeing that I might hurt him
and I have
I may not of been the one to physically cause the scars
but because of me they are there
but because of me he was in pain
how could I have done this
how did u not see it happening
how can I forgive myself
how.....