I Feel So Vacant Now! Poem by Nick Kler

I feel so vacant inside
Sleep deprived and abundantly alone
As I wander within this house
So hollow and demised

Your things scattered all around
Upon the huge basement racks
Your yellow rubber duck
Your smiling sippy cup

Clothes that once filled your life
Are packed into these boxes so white
They scream from within
Begging for you to return

A box filled with your games
You once screamed and cried for insane
Now scattered upon these dusty floors
No one to play or throw them around

I walk from room to room
As if, abandoned after a war
I pick up your PS 2
That you screamed for me to install
'It's all hooked up, My little darling!
Both sides are on and ready to belong'

I can still hear you sobbing
'Daddy; I want to use it first'
Oh! My little sweetness
they anxiously await for your return
what would I do with them alone?
They need your screams
they need to belong

These walls bite at me
Looks peaceful like a house of cards
without you running inside
without your blissful bouts of cry

I remember you jumping upon the bed
I remember getting mad inside of my head
there is no one left to annoy me anymore
I sit awake through the night instead

I crave your aimless spells of pry
I miss getting really annoyed
Oh, how I wish you were here, my lil'l
As I lay upon this bed and cry

I will make it through, somehow
Tears that fall they always dry

NICK KLER

Sep 08