I Cant Breathe.. Poem by Regan Mackenzie

I can't breathe...
These thoughts rush to my head
Led by my own insecurities
I can't breathe and my stomachs made knots
Tangled and stuck from my playing with these thoughts
And I want to stop
But I can't
I can't breathe...
I can't help thinking of Him
thinking of Her
Thinking over and over and over
Of them both all over each other
It makes me sick
Yet I still pick at these thoughts in my head
Still in pain from once being misled
Thinking of things that He might of said
That weren't true
These thoughts sink to my stomach
Grow roots in my core
And I can't breathe...

Memory reminds me of Him
Of what He'd done
Of when I had thoughts of Him being the one
Now replaced with these
These thoughts that block air to my lungs so I can't breathe
These thoughts that tangle and tighten my stomach and won't leave
I want to believe he's better than Him
But everytime his phone rings
My mind starts racing
And I'm sitting there wondering who it is and why they called and what they said
And I just can't get these thoughts
These thoughts out of my head...

My lungs just feel so tight like they might close
And the feeling grows inside my stomach
Tosing and turning
Making me sick
And I'm so sick of it
But it don't stop
It won't stop
It won't
I can't breathe...
And I can see the damages He still manages to cause me now
I can see he's hurting cause He did me wrong
And I know he'll try but he won't be able to deal with it for too long
I want to stop
But the pain, the thoughts, the worry is too strong
I can't breathe...

These thoughts rush to my head
Led by my own insecurities
I can't breathe and my stomachs made knots
Tangled and stuck from my playing with these thoughts
And I wana stop but I can't
I can't breathe...

Memory reminds me of Him.


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