I Am...Afraid Poem by Lizelle 'Leasel' Martins

It happened unexpected
Gradually
And yet knowingly

I love the feeling
I shouldn't
But I can't help myself

I want to give in
Give all of me
Raise the white flag
To the war of this heart and mind of mine
But I am afraid
Afraid that if I do
You will run and leave me
Naked and all bare

I am afraid of what you really feel
I am afraid that you can and want to love me
I am afraid that you want to protect me
I am afraid that you want to comfort me
I am afraid that you want to make me smile
I am afraid that you want to be my strength
My shoulder to cry one
I am afraid that you love me… All of me
I am afraid…

But what I fear most
Is what I really feel

I want to open up
Break these walls down for you
And let you in
But I am not brave enough
I am not strong enough

I am afraid that…
I might be bruised
Bruised by your words
Bruised by…

Bruised by my own pain


(c) Lizelle Leasel Martins