Hopeless Romantic Poem by Ramona Thompson

So full of love
So full of sensual, sweet delights to share
How could I ever be angry with him?
How could I ever hate him for doing what comes to him naturally?
I can't
I won't
So please don't ask me to be
Please don't ask me to turn him in or punish him
Only for the crime of sometimes acting too much
The part of the hopeless romantic

So he likes it a little rougher than most
So he doesn't always....
Ok make that never asks for permission
Is that really so very wrong?
Is that really such a terrible thing?
After all, he doesn't even really understand that what he is doing is wrong
To him it's not even rape
It's all just part of the game and romantic chase
To him and sometimes even to me
It is just another lovely extended expression of his love

And so I choose to remain silent
Quiet about all the other women
Hours long and tiring are spent
Washing away every last trace of his guilt and the evidence
True to the vows I made on our wedding day
I stick by his side
Through and thin
In sickness and in health
For better or worse
Sane and insane

I'm not proud I married a rapist
But I do love him
I always have
I always will
I will not leave him
Not now nor ever
Would't even if one of his victims turned out to be my very own sister or mother
I'd just do what I've always done
Forgive, forget and send another threatening note to any woman
Daring to think of speaking out about him
I know it's wrong
Criminal, even
But what else can I do?

I've stuck by him this long
I've dug myself this deep
There can be no going back now
This is just my lot in life
My fate
My destiny
I have no choice
I can't and I won't live without him
And so forever if I must by my rapist husband's side I shall stay
No matter how much it kills me
A little more inside each and every day that I do so

2009 Ramona Thompson