Here I Sit (Part 1) Poem by Rikki Giovani

Here I sit trying not to cry.
I know that I have done wrong but, as to what I am lost.
So here I sit trying to reach out.
Yet, I find no hand to hold.
The hand that I am looking for, I pushed away a long time ago.
I look around and notice that I am pushing everything away.
Maybe one day after I have come back to me,
And let go of my shadow self, I can be whole.
Maybe I can learn to get back up on my own.
But for now, I still need that hand to help me up.
So, here I sit trying not to cry.

’04.September,2009’