Here I Go Again Poem by Jessica Cummings

I thought I was done
I thought you were gone
and all that was left was vestige
but here I go again
letting you in
to flirt and flaunt and taunt around
in my dreams
albeit to your unawares
or slight awares perhaps
relapse
here I go again
falling into old habits and ways
I'd forced myself to give up for days
that turned into weeks
then months
then years
I find inside a verge of tears
I almost had forgotten
here I go again
how wrong it was
of course
to force
away
what I should have embraced
and invited to stay
and come what may
the smile of your face
continues its place
in my thoughts of your beautiful entity
entices me
with possibility...
Here I go again

(9/7/07)