Heart Beat Melodies Poem by Alice Cordy

I listen to every word from your mouth,
always hoping to hear only the truth.
No matter how hard you try,
it's my doubting that makes me cry.

I feel that I am doing everything wrong,
even though all I want is to be strong.
There are things that you say,
that make me feel that we are slowly drifting away.
Constantly reminding me of other people in my life,
which brings a lot of pain and strife.

My heart constantly aches,
not knowing if I can take anymore of this earthquake.
I don't know what I am meant to feel,
but it is ever so real.

Feeling though I'm not worth knowing thyself,
only wishing to left on a shelf
Sitting here to ponder,
about the world wonders
Feeling everything is my fault,
as I see my life as ‘too difficult'.

I want you to know,
when I'm feeling low
I think of you,
of how we use to be
Wiping away my blues,
reassuring my values.
Always putting that special smile on my face.
It's that love I will always embrace.

One that I'll hold ever so dear.
Honestly there is one thing that I fear.
Not having that someone to wipe away my tears,
for the rest of my years.

Being lonely is a scary thought,
no matter how many nights we fought
Having that someone to cuddle,
to wash away all our troubles.
Providing that security blanket,
like the warmth of a winter jacket.

Also every time I look at you,
what I feel is every so true.
The wounds of pain and sorrow,
Something I hide in a burrow.
Is nothing compares to the happiness and pleasure,
wonderful memories that I'll always treasure

James, you will always be my bud,
one who make my heart beat with a thud.
It fills up with the love we have or had,
I am ever so glad of knowing this Chad.

I will always be your blossom,
where I can hold you to ransom.
You will always be part of my memories,
held together by all of my heart beat melodies.