Hear Me, I Beg Poem by tristan loveday

Im here complaining about you, dont you ever complain about me?
im here talking about you, dont you hever talk about me?
im here thinking about you, dont you ever think about me?

will you look and smile at me, for once?
will you hold my hand without fear?
will you stop telling me how you feel? please dont.
all these years, do they mean something to you
or am i still like your little sister?

why cant you say 'i love you'?
im desperate...this i will admit
i dont want to die without knowing the truth
and if it isn't...then please lie,
God will forgive you, it wont be a sin as
long as i can smile for once, as long as i will
think you will be there

i know she make you smile but you say
you get hurt more
you thank me when we talk, we laugh at our jokes,
whats missing?
dont i make your chest hurt, the way mine hurts
when you come close to me or even when i think about you

i know i sound sad and desperate, what can i do?
what can i say?
if only you could hear my tears like i hear yours,
if only you dream about me like i dream about you,
if only i was your first love like you are mine