Hallucinations Of My Mind Poem by Kat Smith

My legs moved up and down

In an off beat rhythm that I could just barely feel

my heart beat

thump

thump

thump

my legs stopped

you were there, here in my living room

I was hallucinating

I could tell

You were smiling at me, that's how I knew

You don't smile at me any more

no

you don't look at me

you don't touch me

you don't love me

no, not anymore

But right now you did
You loved me

I felt sweat pour off in droves
I was sitting on my couch shaking
I could feel the familiar material scratch against my skin
But my eyes didn't see my living room

We were in a modern studio apartment, just like the one I’d always dreamed of living in

The light that poured through the window made you seem like you were glowing

you always did have a glow about you

then the scene began to burn
my focus zooming out

I was looking at a burning photograph of you of us

we were burning

I stood up frustrated, I’d always hated heavy handed metaphors