Connor Whyte

(March,30th,1993 / Montana)

Growing


This is the life I told myself I would live but to this day it gets further away,
I break my back to save my day to work below minimum wage to fight for something that I could be, I struggle to take my own way to grow as a man and to follow the law and obey,
In this life its hard to be what you want without the will to stay, When trouble comes in my direction I move to the side to get out of it's way, Follow my own path to get the things I want most,
I see other peoples reactions when they get to know me and decide to flee what is it that makes them want to turn the other way what is it can't you see what is happening to me, I try so hard to believe that I will be the someone I want to be, In the end I find their is not much left in me lost without love and my heart bleeds, Depression and regrets go with me, that part of my brain that won't leave and seek to destroy me, I push not to hate as I have felt I have changed to learn to love every human being to embrace love and keep it close but I find no comfort as I can't confront this demon that has displayed itself in front of me,
Its been to long since I have wrote and I have so much to say,
But I know I won't get all of it out, it feels like this may be my final note,
these words I speak is how I have felt, for so many years I have been a ghost, I am tired of not being noticed what does life have to bring it feels like someone else is pulling my strings toying with me, wanting so bad to slip from this place and find something great, To find her to be with her but I do not know who this her is, I have nothing to offer but I hope this will change so my mind won't feel so strange

Submitted: Thursday, October 17, 2013
Edited: Wednesday, October 23, 2013

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  • Brianna Wahlquist (4/11/2014 2:04:00 PM)

    you said i would like it and i most certainly did. i would say unique but the word is no longer unique itself and this writing is almost like mine. confused and full of regret that people over look and wire us off as monsters. well done friend! keep writing pleaaaase. (Report) Reply

  • Katelin Taylor (4/9/2014 11:43:00 AM)

    Very unique writing. I haven't read a lot of this form of poetry and I've never really appreciated it but I'm beginning to through yours and a few others. Thank you for writing and sharing. (Report) Reply

  • Amanda Laurent (10/24/2013 6:54:00 PM)

    I love the constant rhythm in this poem, and I think it'd be great read out loud. You conveyed well the internal push and pull of opposing emotions. (Report) Reply

  • Susan Lacovara (10/18/2013 12:14:00 AM)

    Growing was quite an interesting spilling of your soul...everyone has experienced the emotions you painted so vividly. Growing, in life, never ends...it is the growth of the soul that strengthens you and pushes you to move forward... while pursuing happiness and love, desperately we search in vain....once we see that life provides beauty all around us...happiness an Love unveil themselves to us....much to our surprise. Look for simple beauty, reflecting in every day...PEACE. I invite you in to read my poetry as well. Keep writing and posting! (Report) Reply

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