Going Crazy Poem by V P Mahur

I think that I have
Gone absolutely crazy
When I need to be active
I feel so lazy
When I want to go east
I happen to move to west
When I want to sleep
I restlessly without a nap
When I need to look serious
I feel my lips smiling
While reading prose
I start writing poems
If I wish to call a friend
I whisper your name
From my trembling lips
Every feminine creature
Appears before me
In your feature
If somebody calls me
I cannot hear
If I want to live for you
I think I am dying
For your view
When I want to die
For your severe pain
It seems to me
I have acute fears
In my brain
Now gain is loss
And loss is gain
Can I ever regain?
My original plain