Forgone Poem by Indira Renganathan

No sooner did I wed you
Than I was forced
To forgo
Something special
That was
Close to my heart
Close to my soul
Close to me myself alone

You never bothered
That I was yearning
For that special
All through

I was forced to forgo
For your parents
For your job's pressure
For your colleagues
And for every friend
Of your huge friends-circle

Life grew the same way
Raising and grooming
Our kids too
I got totally lost
Albeit I was yearning
For that great special
All through

But knowing my mind
You never bothered
You never bothered
All through

What you earned, what you spent
What you saved...
Where you went, what you did
Whom you spoke to...

Despite my efforts
All in secrecy you were..
Ignorant me
Still waiting for that special


knowing my mind
You never bothered
You never bothered
All through

Years passed by..

And
Life will not wait
For me to get mine done
It's gone
Gone with you into the aether

You were the Sun
I was the Moon
Eclipsed
Into a nighted life
All through

My hope of waiting..
Crumbled into shards

And you're gone
Once for all
Passed away far invincible
Into the aether

What is left?
Loss of you
Loss of the whole of you
Loss of something special
That was
Close to my heart
Close to my soul
Close to me myself alone