Forgive Or Forget Poem by Deanna Gorton

The voices in my head keeps telling me to forgive you,
but my heart wants to forget you.
It's like they're tearing me apart,
It's driving me crazy.
I just want them to stop.

I just want to run away from it all,
But you keep pulling me back.
Why can't I be free from your grasps.
Why can't I live my life without this pain in chest.
Why can't I be me.
Why must you control my live.

You're a sickness, a disease.
You're my worst nightmare.
You're a disgrace to man-kind.
You're nothing,
But yet I can't forget you.

I lye awake wondering,
Maybe It's my fault,
Maybe I shouldn't have said anything to you,
I should have stayed quiet and let you leave.
I already knew that there was no stopping you,
But I had this little bit of hope.
That you'll stay if I had said something,
But I was wrong.

I should have seen that you were only playing games.
That I never meant anything to you,
But I was young and stupid,
I still am stupid to think that you care,
when you never did,
But I still want to see your smile,
I still want to feel your embrace,
I still want to hear you call out my name,
but I know that'll never happen.

The voices in my head keeps telling me to forgive you,
but my heart wants to forget you.
It's like they're tearing me apart,
It's driving me crazy.
I just want them to stop.