First Kiss Poem by Lauren C

Ninth grade
14 years old
In a cold, public library
You were calm
The butterflies in my stomach were fluttering so fast
I swore you could hear them
We weren't alone
All of our friends were there
Some of them were kissing too
They were cheering
Like this special private moment
meant nothing
Like it was any of their business
It wasn't your first time
You couldn't understand why I was so reluctant
You came close
Close enough for me to feel your breath on my neck
I backed away and you came closer
You kissed me
It wasn't anything like I had seen in the movies
It felt uncomfortable
Like I wasn't even there
I kept my eyes open
I felt numb
I wanted it to be over
You kept going
I counted in my head
One, two, three, four
You pulled me against you
Five, six
You wrapped your arms around me
Seven, Eight
I looked passed your shoulder
Nine, Ten
And looked into the eyes of the boy I really loved