Feeling Lonely Poem by Phillip Alan Green

Ever since I was a small boy,
When my dad left us,
My sister used to tease the blonde haired boy at the window.
Shouting Daddy’ coming, he never did!

Through fogging memory of tall strangers,
New schools and fights, scraps of knowledge,
I grew, withdrew into myself,
And embraced emotion and swallowed the pain.

A teenager just, I went to see,
But friend abused and I lay broken,
On bed, he wasn’t there for me,
Again I withdrew and swallowed fear.

In later teens I could not trust,
And took the pills just to fit in,
With all the fake friends I’d made,
To laugh and dance around me.

I moved away and fell in love,
Two girls a house, a job, I joined the race,
Years to build, with blinkered pain,
Days to end the bubble burst.

I promised to be a dad forever,
And started the journey to be someone,
I fell in love again and had a son.
But betrayal ended before it begun.

So I feel the weight, I feel the pain.
Time to get it right.
I accept myself and won’t look back,
I will become a man.

I have so much to give,
Always I rush to fast and hold,
But I’m lonely and just want a friend,
To share my thoughts and laugh.

She sits inside, just like me,
With similar thoughts of just to be,
Sensitive just like me, just to be accepted,
Who are you? Where are you?

One day I will find you.