Fear Poem by tshilidzi modike

Fear has robbed me of
the pleasures of my life and love
people around me are developing
that taste of pity because
they see me losing myself
in the shadows of fear

i do not play
because i feel the fear of losing
i do not sleep
because i feel the fear of dreaming
i do not run
because i feel the feaar of falling

i feel no regret
as i have been dissappointed
and heartbroken as well
i am not ashamed to look at
the way i was dissappointed
which is not blaming but
tryind to understand why

my pain is real
my fears are nearer
and they have taken evertything and
given nothing in return...

what is happening to us?
what have i done?
what if time could be turned back?
maybe, just maybe i would
live my life with no strings attached and not fear.