Exposed (Jan 15th,2003) Poem by Nicholas McDonough

My repressed emotions
lay exposed
love denied
fears silenced
No solace
of open arms
only uncertainty
uprooted and
pushed away
repelled by
love's polarity
coming apart
at the seems
reclaimed by
suspended death
disintegrating in
dreams never ending
Loathing another
waking day
waking death
loathing every
waking breath
I surround myself
with everyone
yet still feel alone
A stalemate revolving me
an explosion of
terror and beauty
forever devoured
in it's illusion
sending shivers
down my spine
transforming
unheard screams
soothing the hurt
within time