Everything Poem by Andrus Cassian

Everything
it just falls down to one word
Everything
and everything I could ever say would never be enough
Everything
and I could blame denial
Denial, my beast and insomnia-tic dream
not here, not present; was it ever really there
I filed this under 'low level tragedy'
yet I doubt surely I gave the wrong label
I saw this all coming, I knew it was coming
It was just a repeat of history called the past
but it's nothing now, it's not phasing me
I've accepted it all; it's not that hard to expect
the results, the outcome, the punishment would've ended me
attacked me but I've been through this before
It's not worth crying over anymore
I'm just on the quickest road to recovery
and the quickest way to get over and done with it
because I believed in everything, everything we ever were
We fought through turmoil, jealousy, personal agonies
too much to just throw us away silently
And she took everything, everything; Juliet, why
And she stole everything, everything; I defy you stars
I built everything, everything around her foolishly, recklessly
only now to tear everything down and rebuild once again
I know honestly I haven't lost her completely; she's still here
but there's no honest guarantee that she shall be mine once again
I can repetitively proclaim I'm not worried or overly concerned
yet it's to hold down the sedative
that I; I was not prepared for this
I'm not ready to explode and decompose all over again