Drunk And Tides Poem by Khondoker Shajahan Raj

I left my body unfed
I lost in the numbness of conscience
I got myself a total love-less
I left my one eye frenzied.
And another in the dullness
I theft my time from me
And pretended to be fearless
I was caught a reindeer in the burning sun
I left my another lion-part in the fun
A thousand eyes were looking in dreams at me
They never said a word for me
I all alone have seen them crying-
I always have shown them my Finn.

Time never had times for me to take back my times
Truth has never shown me the path while I am all the ways lies
Under the sunbeams of frenzy;
I told my departed shadow to be mine
Take me all the way where I can get those be fine
I have this with me and without me
As an Oedipus-child to be
A poetry that eats-up its father
And be pregnant with spreading feather.

Time has yet left my enough to be its prey
like a ferocious lion that take its prey, wounds it and doesn’t eat it in a time;
Rather encroaches it steadily
My hands are like the radar of my soul
It is also numb now like the eyes of the vulture that numbs its prey's mind
And a cold air is just passed through your spinal-cord
I am cold like that.

I get my thoughts dead and find them at the dead of the night
When virginity is taken like a beast
And nudity reigns making its feast
I was lost in the nothingness of this
And like this nothingness has got my this
I was fed on my dead thoughts and I dreamt
Of such that has all my all and all
And I found a fire of hell mixed with the snow of heaven
I got, thus, my heaven fall
And the unfit hell for me and my clan
I found the tide heavy for my water
I found the path for me too far
I closed the window of the reality
And opened the door of deathly imagination for my undone duty
I found every alphabet to be my enemy
I still look back in anger and
Its my past that I envy......