Dove On A Wire Poem by Kenny Mantinelli

My mind is scattered like a jigsaw puzzle,
Confused as all hell;
Not sure which pieces go where,
No longer can I tell.

Every time I see someone as something different,
Every time I see them as more;
I'm caught in the moment for a while,
Then I ask myself what I'm looking for.

There could be one, two, three, or four,
I don't know how much more I can take;
Before my heart gets so many cracks,
It just breaks.

One after another,
After another and so on;
How many more can it endure,
Until all hope is gone?

And it seems like all I can do,
Is fall back to my past;
Give up on the future,
And just turn around fast.

But why do I do that,
When even the past has nothing for me;
There's emptiness all around,
Such darkness is all I see.

People tell me I'll find 'the one' eventually,
But who's to say what will, won't, shall, or shan't;
The only possibility of anything happening,
Is to believe, which I just can't.

After so much pain constantly,
All with the same exact wording to the letter;
I just keep hoping, and praying,
That the next time will be better.

But, it won't be any better at the rate I'm going,
Seeing as how my hurt seems to be in a pattern;
A pattern unchangeable like planets,
Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn.

It won't change with the next attempts,
So why should I even go on trying;
Humans have almost given up,
At finding new ways of flying.

And that supports the fact,
That my hurt won't stop soon;
I've waited how many days, exactly?
How many times have I passed Noon?

So if you want me to keep on going,
If you want me to not give up;
Then I want you to show yourself,
Take off that mask and that makeup.

If there is 'the one' out there for me,
Stop hiding yourself from my life;
All you're doing is causing me pain,
My entire world is full of strife.

I'll give you some time from now,
But after that I'm done;
I'm hiding myself from the world,
Shading myself from the sun.

All I want right now is someone,
That I can have, hold, hug, and love;
To be a perfect duo,
I, the wire, You, the dove.