Do I Dare? Poem by Ben mcelfresh

You wait outside this broken heart
You wait for the opportunity to come in
You seem so content waiting
But still i don't understand why

You walk around aimlessly for hours
That one sentence from me means everything
Your ears tuned to hear it no matter how far i am
You look into my eyes just to see what i think

You try so hard to look into my soul
But the wall around my heart stops you
You slowly work your way inside
Or so you continue to try

You can't see the results of your actions
You can only hope what you're doing is working
You see me smile
But you question what it means

Still you patiently wait
You don't want to force down the wall
You wait for me to open it up
A endless wait you know is the possibility

So many times before i've been hurt
Tearing down the wall again can surly only mean more
I'm hesitant to lower my guard
I'm hesitant to let anyone in ever again

Even now i don't want you in
Not because of who you are
But because the fear of pain
My life can only endure so much

You come to terms with the wait
But still you're there
Why i can never understand
Only if i bring down these walls

But now i must question
Is understanding worth the pain
Will the pain make up for new knowledge
Will any of it make sense?

Now do i dare
Do i dare let you see inside
Do i dare let you see what i truly am
Do i dare let you see everything i hide, my every side, my every secret
Do i dare?