Dear Mother Poem by DAUGHTER OF A CRACKED MIND

Dear mother,

Now as an adult, I'll ask you this
Do you remember the torturous
games you played?
Do you remember the pain you caused?

I wonder if you can still hear my screams
as I pleaded for no more
Did you not see the tears of fear
as they streamed to the floor?

Could you imagine what people
would have thought, If they could
have seen behind your closed door?

I ask you now.Do you know of the
damage you caused?

The physical scars may have
disappeared from the world's sight
though the child's fractured mind still
remains.With all the cracks you caused

Now as an adult
I wish to inform you, that my mental scars
have run as deep as the night is black.

I'll ask you now
Did you take delight in my pain
all those years ago
while I was an innocent child
or were you just in denial?

Too scared to hear my pleas
too scared to feel my pain
too scared to see my fear

I ask you of this.
If time turned back with all you now
know, would you repeat your crimes?

Do you remember
the day you gave me away?
May I remind you of that day
as the only thing you did right.

Can you remember the words you used?
'Mother please, look after her
I can not cope, I have to get away
I need to get my life back
I just can't do it with her

So I've been told

When you turned your back
and walked away, I was all but a year old

Now tell me this
What had changed your mind?
As three long years had passed and
I was only four, you took me back to your
horrible crimes. Your flesh & blood I was

Dear mother
Now do you know the damage you caused?
Do you now feel my pain?
Can you now see my fear?

I now live in my fractured mind
cracked beyond repair
Will you now accept the blame
for your torturous games?