Daddy, Let Me Down Poem by Candy Simpson

Why do I blame myself when the one who should be ashamed is you?
Why should I suffer when it’s your mind that is askew?
Why do I cry wondering if you ever feel the pain you made me feel inside?
And all you can say is I was young but I tried! !
I just want to forget about the past, but the past is a part of me!
And I want to move on to see how it would be
As I grow older, I realize there is no way I could have prevented it
But I won’t waste myself on you, not even spit
No one knows why I've been blue, and I can't cover it up anymore!
And to hide it, is a major chore
See I'm just a little girl who's misunderstood
And as much as I try, I can’t say I’m good
Daddy you've let me down, this must be said,
Just so that it doesn’t invade my head
Now as I live my days, I try having' fun
But I realize you are no one
I don’t need you to cause me more pain!
In my life you are just a constant stain
For what you did to me has made me hate
And no matter how much I deny, you’ve made me a state
You promised you'd never hurt me like that!
But all you could manage was a chat
Not even that some days, and it really got me down
But I guess in this all I’m the clown
But doesn’t worry go back to your fake wife and kids
I know everyone thought this, and probably took bids
I can't take this anymore! I just want to leave this entire thing behind! !
But I should have seen this coming; I guess you made me blind
I don’t know why you do this, or care
But I will not just keep being your spare
You want to clear your conscience, bring it on
Because I know that everything you say is a con
I don’t think you’ll come back and I don’t know if I want that or not
But in the meantime I hope you go to hell and rot
You call yourself a Farther, you make me choke
Because you and I know that you are a complete joke
Don’t ever insult me by calling me a relation
Because I don’t think I can take much more frustration
I hope one day you realise what you have done
That day you’ll be alone without me or them you have no one
You told me I was your little girl and you love me so
And that you are never going to let me go
I guess I miss how life used to be
When you actually really cared about me
But then again, there are the lies
But this time there no one here to wipe my eyes
I hope you burn in hell and die a painful death
Then you will realise how i feel at that point you will have no breath