Crossroads Poem by Tim Romines

Walking through life experiencing all that I can
I have come across many crossroads
Some easy to negotiate and others, well others
Taking all the life out of me leaving me weak and needy
But at the last minute crawling out of the abyss
To only reveal a world that I thought that you had left.
Did I make the correct choice at the crossroads?
Did I make the wrong choice will linger in my mind?
Until the next decision has to be made
I will never really know and even then
The question will remain, right or wrong?
Each time I choose at a crossroad part of me dies
But part of me feels alive.
Is it the danger of the choice?
Is it the uncertainty of the outcome?
Why do I keep coming back to the same things?
Why do the same things keep coming back to me?
Some say life is a cycle and it will run its course
Others believe that we create our own destiny
What do you believe?
Does it really matter who decides?
I have had to put my trust in only One
For all my future choices which ironically are not really choices
They are simply the path pre chosen for me but I have to find it
And sort it out among all the wrong paths
But learning from every one of them.
Letting go has been the hardest thing for me to attempt
But thus far has been the most rewarding
I am still just a child in this life and welcome
Everything new that I can be taught
I release my control to God and trust His word
That my life will be complete here and that
I will do the good that I was put here to do
Before I return to him.

Tim Romines 6/5/2008