Crazy Thing Poem by Leah Ayliffe

I'm the craziest thing you ever did see
the world I always dreamed is now as it seems
I walk the walk and talk the talk of ice and fire
trouble is the anthem, the need i desire
I used to sit in front of television screens
watching the rebel boys and bad girls being mean
and I wanted it all
the world to be mine, to be ours
looking dark and glamorous to my eye
a dangerous allure, smoking cigarettes just to die
drinking from the bottle cause I just don't care
black make-up smudged, loose knots, ribbon tied in my hair
like the dirty techno beat of a heart
living in a grunge sound fantasy that rocks
There's no need to imagine the state I have found
It's as real as it gets, broken laying on the ground
and i think I am in love with this disease
the halo of my past, a darling aiming to please
murdered, dead, innocence lost
give me the drugs, burn the cross
an angel in flames, an angel of freedom
falling forever in a light that never comes
sour and bitter, sweet in the mind
strangers are the only people who are kind
to people like me, like you and I
searching for a place to belong, who wont leave us high and dry
the song i used to sing was beautiful and sad
but now its changed in colours and its dark and its rad
For a while i would sit and sip on hot water
thinking about the days I wanted back when I was younger
These are the best days, hiding around the sharpest turn
and it is in these days that I have so much to learn
desperate, desolate, dying a thousand deaths again
i wake to the reality that my heart and mind will never mend
its a cycle that goes on and never stops moving
I raise my hands, the answer is in grooving
to the beat of the white noise which deafens each day
pounding to the melody of what everyone may say
we're on our own wave
girls in a cave
trapped in this place
pretty cars in a failed race
I understand the black and white game
the starlets and harlots, the rebels of fame
the gangsters and dreamers under bridges at dark
the ones who look for an escape, for a light, a spark
I am you, you are me, we are now in this group
sad drifters who smile, without a care, hula-hoop
Never been so reckless but it's hard to be careful
when the people surround you are angry and hateful
lets just run run run run
we run run run run
looking for sunny days under palm trees
wearing black hearts on our sleeves
I'm the baddest I've ever known
a darkness that has overgrown
in a superstar way of heavens light
here on earth, such a divine site
I was once innocent, a good girl, even when I was bad
now i'm just a mindless wanderer, I should miss what i had
I don't, I don't mind being here anymore
I left my old shoes behind at my old front door
I'll carry on this way until the day i die
Maybe tomorrow, or when i tell myself the next beautiful lie
the best way to be, how I always say,
crazy, wild.... and free.