**contemplation** All I Have Ever Wanted... Poem by Emily Sleator aka Katastrophic Kyte3 NopyGirrl

I need some sort of contemplation to keep me alive
You say I’m too attached
F*** that we could break at anytime I wanted
Being attached hurts too bad
U tell me I think relationships last forever
What gave you a clue that I ever thought that?
This was over before it ever began
Our love is like a triggered gun ready to go off at anytime
Self-mutilation the only way to give up this pain
He who hesitates his loss will be left behind
I know I’m craving you but I don’t want you back
This is my eleventh hour
My crucifixion ready to begin
I’m finally in the driver’s seat
Meticulous about where I want to go