Your Pusha

Siting on the floor I contemplate how
Will this effect everyone around me
Am I selfish to not care right now
Just too focused on ending the pain

So many thoughts of how and where
When should it happen if it's to be
Too much pain in my heart to bare
My life is empty with you not here

Im thinking of taking this pill now
Rationalizing about to make the jump
Maybe in death Ill finally learn how
to do all things in life I could not