Confused Sorrow Poem by Jessica Goudreault

When things are so right,
Why is it that I wish for another life?
I have the perfect love
That I could never want to replace.
My heart brightens every time I see his face,
But why do I want that brightness to fade?
In the back of my mind
It reminds me everyday.
I don't ever want to hurt him,
He means so much to me
He is always there to lend an ear,
To dry or shed a meaningful tear.
He loves me more than anyone else has ever cared to,
I love him more than I have ever dared to,
But because of this happiness
A part of my mind wants to ruin it
So that I can wallow in seft-pity,
To cry with reason
And be torn and lonely.
I love the life he has brought to me,
But maybe it's my destiny to be hurt and lonely.
I can never tell why I think like this,
I can't make sense of it,
Instead, I'll try and forget
Rather than think of,
Erase the thoughts from my mind
And continue falling deeper in love.
This is where I'm happy
And want to stay,
I will repeat it to myself everyday
Until my sorrowful thoughts fade away.