Confused... Poem by Dislocated Heart

A question I knew the answer to...
but words stuck at the throat..
beating of the heart got faster..
you got that affect on me,
that makes me stronger.

Pen on the paper,
only thoughts were of you,
how long till the feeling subsides?
till I no longer care..

Sunday another carinval,
Dates are set up,
ready to go..
she excited,
and I know its the day I'll make her mines..
yet I doubt I can commit..

A smile for her is temporary..
a smile for you.. seems forever..

She calls every morning..
Telling me babe, smile..
I say I did..
but its just not the same..

I wonder if I really do like her..
or am I just... doing what makes her happy...