Clutching At Straws (A Poem For Japan) Poem by Sarah Gamutan

Like when I drown in the waters,
I know it is the sign of desperation.
Please tell me. Am I subdued?

I then look at myself in the mirror
But, oh, the oceans don't have reflections.
Still, I ask. Am I subdued?

Then I go desperate, I start not to
Sleep- as if there was no other day.
No other day to make it right.

I am crying- I write this poem
To let you know, I am on the verge
Of desperation. I thought my

Brown skin will fade when I
Drown into the deep sea. I
Blink my eyes, I raise my eyebrow.

I am still clutching at straws
Into the waters- with the giant
Waters splashed all over my body.