Captive Cycle Poem by Sugar Bear

I know that I'm superior to these guys I date
But it's hard to wait especially in such a vulnerable state
I just want to love, be loved, and constantly thought of
But my past has damned me with a colossal grudge
After all these years of being lied to, used, and abused
It's funny that I even dare to try again with these dudes
The truth is that in end, I'll just end up hurt again
I'll beat up myself, take my medicine, and fake an incessant grin
Though inside I'll be worsening, another's blown it for the rest of them
So the next guy who comes along will just be another Machiavellian
Yet I can't stand this looping cycle that I'm captive in
It's like I can predict the end long before it even begins
But I don't want a bitter heart, I'll go in with a tender start
I'll put makeup on these scars, and listen to his sweet Mozart
Then beneath my skin I can't help but question him
I can't help but think of ways this one will last on a whim
If you're looking for a one night stand keep on looking man
For I am the unbendable, and I won't change the way I am
A great relationship needs trust, equality, and respect
And if you can't give me that, the doors down the hall to the left