Cant Anyone See? Poem by Ankoku Gekido

October 14th 2007

Cant anyone see?
Jason?
Kyle?
Ana?
Anyone?
Cant anyone see how hurt and confused I am?
Cant anyone help me out of my hole?
Everyone walks by again
As if nothings wrong
You guys are just as bad as them
As the ones who left me to die before
As all the people who used and abused me
You guys don't care so stop lying to my face
I’d rather you tell me you hate me than having me think you are ignoring me
I’d rather have no friends at all than have people pretend to care
You say you care but why do you walk away from me when I’m in pain?
Things are returning to how they were
To when I had to fend for myself
To when I had to stand strong or die
To when no one noticed little old me
Off in a dark corner wallowing in my sorrow
Helping others up to their feet while I fall farther and farther down
Maybe I wont stand strong enough this time
Maybe I wont live through this one
Maybe everyone would be better off without me around
Without having to think
“Oh here comes stupid old Katie lets act like we care”
Without having to put in the extra effort to make me think I’m cared for
I’ll go back to my dark corner
You guys can walk out of my life like everyone else
And I'll fall farther than I ever have
Not to see day or night again
To rest eternally
So you can live on your lives without having to think
“Here comes Katie lets put on happy faces and hug her”
Without having to put in the effort to act like you care
So you guys can move on
And I can wither away