Cannot Put The Picture Together [revised] Poem by Margaret Alice Second

When known in advance each remark will be
met with an icy stare, all requests regarded
suspiciously and interactions fraught with a
danger of incomprehension – how does one
prepare to face a well-meaning bully

How does one prepare to be silent, speaking
only, in the circumstances, when essential; it
doesn’t matter how I try to prepare, it wont
lift my mood – my favourite program wasn’t
on yesterday to satisfy my need for escape

An episode of Men Behaving Badly worsened
my depression this morning, I feel like running
away to a place of great expectations; it is all
that is left, my illusions of getting along with
a bully have been shattered

I cannot put the picture together again…