Can I Even Say Goodbye... Poem by kenya black

That night
You held me
That day
I was only yours

In my sleep
You are my fantasy
In your thoughts
I was everything

I believed you
I trusted you
With every word my heart lept
And every meaning I began to live

Day after day
I can't think
Can't even concentrate

Knowing you won't call
You won't talk to me
Ignoring me till I'm dead
But wait, youve killed me already

Tick tock
Clickity Clack
Time is out
And were both running

You won't come here
Be with me
Or hear the things I've wanted you to know

You won't find me
Even when you promised
Even when your eyes were true
Never a lie that spread

I can't say goodbye
I don't know what to do
I know weve ended
But why does it hurt so much
Why can't it be likethe others

Me walking away and forgeting
Locking my heart away
And hearing the ticking

I give up
Even when you said to move on
It hurts
I know youre hurt

I know its your doing
But why
Why would you risk
Us saying goodbye

Can I?
Can you?
I don't even know
Yet I do

Goodbye means forvever
Just as loving you till the end
Goodbye means I'll never see you again
That our last kiss and eye contact end

A dead memory
like you and me
A hello and goodbye
A meet, being friends, and loving

Knowing we'd hurt
We loved
We shared
Now saying goodbye
We'll walk away

I'll watch your back
Broad and strong and muscle
Beneath the shirt, I hear your heart
Saying you want me, but go away instead
Saying I love you, but instead I hate you

Even your last words was nothing
Just a hang up on the phone
Couldnt see your eyes
Just not even an I still love you anyway
Which means we'll have to part ways
You and Me

If I ever get to say goodbye to you
and look you in the eyes
I'll say Hello
Not lie
And that I will love you till the end...