Broken Heart /3 Poem by Kaity Larkin

i look in the mirror
i see a sad girl
crying her heart out
why would i be crying my heart out?
its me im the sad girl!
y me?
cause the boy i love will never talk to me
o plz i say to myself
email me plz or just call me
i keep crying
i wish he loved me back
but i cant force him to
i try to force a smile
but i cant
i think about him 24/7
i think of kissing him
i think of cuddleing with him
i think of loving him
can i stop thinking and dreaming?
and start believing cause we could
i sit on my bed still looking at the mirror.
wats wrong with me?
am i ugly?
am i fat?
wat is it?
everyone tells me they wish they were me!
but maybe they were lieing
but i tell them yeah right and they still say they do.
i dont knw wat to do.
i keep crying: (
harder and harder faster and faster
till my cheacks start to hurt.
i say to myself
y cant he just tell me if he does not love me back
i would rather want that then never telling me and letting me suffer.
stop crying i tell to myself just stop
i cant!
he hurt me bad!
he broke my heart
thats worst then a punch in the nose.
y do u have to hurt me?
y cant u just tell me the truth?
y cant u just kiss me?
y cant u just cudddle with me?
y? y? y? y?
thats all im asking is Y?
i stand up and wipe the tears away
still looking in the mirror
i see a happy grl in the mirror kissing that boy is that me or just his ex?
i stop crying but im still crying in they inside
im still thinking of him im still thinkning of r kiss will it ever happen?
i wait online for him
he comes on
i say hi
he does not respond
i say u there?
he gets offline
i say ok?
then that was rude!
i start crying again
does he want to tlk to me?
or am i a loser?
but how am i a loser everyone is my friend?
i cry: (
i open my phone look at his picture
i look at his perfect body in the picture of him laying on the stairs
i wish i could get a hug from him right now cause hes the reason im crying
schools almost here
can i handle it or will i see him and start to cry?
wat if he laughs?
cause he tells everyone that he will never like me
but he gives all these signs when its just me and him or me and my bro and him.
does he love me or does he not
thats all that goes thru my head
is it true love or is it a joke?