Black Flag Poem by Kristina Louisa Carr

I dont understand why the sun is shining so bright
You are not here and things are just not all right
This morning I wished that it would rain all day
It would have comforted me and my mood of decay

Now I have to face the sunshine right in my face
And although the warmth is nice - it feels out of place
No one knows that without you I cease to normally exist
And I feel lost among smiling faces right here in their midst

I wish I could crawl into the cracks of the sidewalk
I want to hide for now and set your arrival on my alarm clock
Until then I want to carry your absence around in my bag
Like an omen of sadness instead of hissing a black flag

I am at a loss that I cant find you anywhere I look
It is frustrating - and anguish and despair overtook
While you are sleeping I hope that you can hear my cries
And get up to find me before my heart and spirit dies

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