Bittersweet Memories Poem by Craig Mize

As the anger builds inside of me
I can't help but to smile a bittersweet smile.
All of these years of abuse was finally about to stop.
The consent fighting, arguing, name calling, and beating
For once it was all about to come to a end.
I hated not living up to everyone expections
I hated being the only one known as a loser.
The way that my own mother looked at me,
The feeling that I feel knowing that my dad gave up on me.
I wasn't the child that they wanted, I was a screw up.
Simply, I was a mistake that they were stuck with
Addicted to cocaine and alcohol. I'm a liar and a cheat,
Stealing from my own parents to feed my addictions.
Selling myself in the streets so I can buy some more,
I was a mistake that my love ones was stuck with.
But after tonight I'll be a mistake nevermore
As I bow my head and say my final prayers to the Lord
'Father please forgive me for I have sinned,
I have did wrong all of my life, I have abused drugs
Worshipped alcohol, stole from others & sold my body for profit.
You say that if we repent that all of our sins would be forgiven
Lord I hope and pray that you can forgive me now.'
As I put the gun to my head a tear falls from my eye,
My heart is now racing as I pull the trigger! ! ! !