Magic Box (September 3,1992)

I fancy a vague and distant mirage
Deceiving the truth like I'm in a cartoon
But as the whole world turns upside down
My dream bursts like a hot air balloon

As I go deep down to the depth of the hole
The more I play as a boring clown
Fate beats me with a razing whiplash
My life and soul depletes in a flash

Oh God! I wish you could end me in a crash
Or drown me in a pool or burn me into ash
Either way, please do act a little fast
Because my life becomes more tough and harsh

No living thing will stop and ask you why
I've none in earth to shed tears and cry
So let's be quick, you split my neck
I'll not bleed; long ago my heart went dry

I don't belong, nor I'd fit in some creed
By ripping off my heart, I'll be unchained and freed
I stop writing now, as only one thing to be done
I stare at my wall, seeing ceiling fan's metal lead