Back 01 Poem by Kira Bloom

I swim through this lake of fears
smooth with pain
and a surface of spikes
in placid blood I drown
and drink of their fall
I taste the salt of tears
and when I can breathe
there is a bittersweet taste of fear
Silver streaks slice at my cheeks
and all that once bound my heart is gone
I return to my worst enemy
The reflection of this black mirror
finding a dark form of my face
The one that lives on hate
as black flames burn away
Incomplete and lost
I allow myself to drift away
I never planned to be that way
and I never planned to run away
but how could I plan what I would not do
when I don't even know the reflection I am looking into
Shame is all I have left
Regret the second best
Pain has returned and mercy is in a deep well
I find the hate he taught me so well
What am I supposed to believe
when disgusting choices sink in
That I was never strong
and every decision was wrong
He did his work well
to make a monster who could smile through hell
Why not go back through the riddles and lies I was taught
What is the world besides that
Every thing created has a destructive purpose
DENY that fact
I never did belong to the crown
I have my own way of rebellion
and the demon is back out