Awakening Poem by Elizabeth Jacqueline Mpanga

Awakening



So on this very day...
A realization hit me...
Hit me so hard almost knocked me down...
Frankly speaking, I was a bit stunned by the force of it all.

All my life I have loved but have wanted too little for myself...
I have played the charitable stranger...
always willing to step aside for love's sake...

But I tell you it never was for my love...
I placed a martyr responsibility on my head...
Felt much joy in seeing others find love...

All the while feeling too self-righteous to find my own happiness...

I kept dodging and ducking whenever love looked down my lane...
Hiding my insecurities and fears behind a brave face
A face that said to all those that dared... that I care nothing for love

I cared nothing for romantic gestures and all the emotions that come with it

I am such a liar...
Kinda ashamed of the act actually

For years I went on all happily not understanding how so badly,
I had robbed myself of the joy of being loved

Then I met you...
And for the first time, I felt brave enough to dare...
brave enough to challenge my fears and insecurities

And not allow them to hold me back...
To love and open up to be loved

I told myself I will give it my whole and...
Leave the rest to Fate

And in the meantime, I will enjoy...
Enjoy every minute I spend loving you...
And being loved by you...

Because for the first time...
I have felt a warmth that not only fills me up...
But lights my soul too

I love you
Remember that...

Friday, July 6, 2018
Topic(s) of this poem: love and life
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